Livin' Life

Life has been full of its ups and downs lately. Things are always changing and sometimes I can't keep up. Blogging has been one of those thinks that I have been bad at keeping up with. So here is a little update of the last year and all the things I didn't want to tell and all the things forgot. So.... in January I went to the doctors after a HUGE 60lbs+ weight gain. It happened all in three months and I had no idea why I was gaining or that I had, until a few months later. I hadn't changed my diet or activity. Nothing was different but the weight gain. Through some convincing from my family, I went to the doctors. After blood tests and more blood test and more doctors visits we found out that I had PCOS Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. So long story short, it has caused weight gain, infertility, achene, and a whole bunch of other really un fun stuff. The good news is that is that it can most likely be fix with weight loss, that bad news is that my body is working against my efforts to lose and making it seem at times, impossible to lose it. Every time I have lost 10lbs I have gained it back in a week. It has been a battle that at times I feel that I have lost. Then I realize, no battle is lost unless I give up. I know that I can lose it and I know that I will. I also know that it could take a REALLY long time. So...... Enough about my problems from the last year and the years to come.

I have a really cute kid that I just adore.

Sure he spits,

hits,

screams,

pushes,

pees his pants,

throws his food,

wont clean up his toys,

wakes up at 6:45,

eats all the food in the house,

colors on the couch,

touches ALL the WRONG buttons,

ALWAYS wants to watch the damn TV

caN't Stop JuMpinG,

Only breaks the things that actually mean something to me,

puts his tooth brush down the drain,

plays in the toilet water.

plays the piano WAY to lOuD,

but then when I am about to reach my BReaKing point, you know... pull out my hair, hide in the closet and cry kind of thing, he always says something like, "I'm so glad your here" and "Mom come play with me". Sometimes just hearing his sweet little, (kind of Innocent) voice just softens my heart. He is such a sweet boy.

He LovEs to do the dishes. He could wash them all day!!

He loves trains!! (unfortunately only when mom plays with him)

He loves tractors (yeah!!)

He loves the Organ

He only listens to organ music

When you ask him where dad is, he says, "playin' the organ"

He is ExtRemEly athletic

He can jump of the arm of the couch and land perfect on both feet

He can salsa dance

He LovEs his Daddy

He loves ME!

He loves life

He always says "yeah mom, forever" (I'm still not sure why)

I love when he says, " Ah, I can't get outta dare!"

I love that he loves his Papa Bear as much as I do.

I love those moments after a really hard two year old day, after I've put him to bed and sang him a song. I sit down on the couch to think about my day and just smile. That's the moment when I think how much I love this two year old boy that twists my world around. The moment that I think of his little curious brain that is working all day long to learn and discover everything he possible can. I think of all the things he did during the day that tore me apart for the moment, and I realize that he is so excited for life. He loves living it, he could eat, drink, and breath life. He is excited to go shopping, to go out in the FREEZING snow, to eat the same cereal that he has aways eaten. He is so excited to take a bath, do the dishes, sweep, do laundry, dance and sing. Every thing that has become such a chore for us all, everything that we do every day and don't even give it a thought. I love that moment that I get each night to remind my self of my love for Toby and Ethen, and to remind my self, to love life, every step, every chore, every boo boo , every trial, and every blessing. Maybe I really just like the quiet... I love my little Toblerone! He is definitely my piece of chocolate every day!

Since this is already WAY to long. I will update more later. Hopefully sooner then later!

Merry Christmas!