New Year... New life!

So normally when a new year starts I don't really care. I don't set goals, I don't try new things, I don't change anything. Maybe I'm afraid of change. Well, I am ready to put that all behind me and start new this year. I have to change! There are things in my life that I just can't put off any longer. So I am going to share them with you... all my goals... some hopes and wants... but mostly things that I have to do. I want to become a better person. When I die... I want people to think that I was the nicest, funniest best wife, mom, and friend. Not that all that can happen in a year, and I'm hoping I don't die this year.So hear it goes!!! Hopefully I will remember to keep updating about my goals. Whether it is by complaints, accomplishments, or pleas of HELP! So I don't know how many It will be, I am just going to type. Don't read it if you don't want to, this is mostly for me, and oh how it helps to share it!!!

1. Read the Book of Mormon all the way through
2. Pray more earnestly
3. Read the Ensign each month (all the way through)
4. Do something nice for someone every day
5. Sing in church at least 3 times this year
6. Learn 5 songs on the piano
7. Learn LOTS more about PCOS
8. Lose 60 Ibs or more (about 1 Ib a week)
9. Replace one unhealthy food in my diet for a daily cup of vegetables
10. Replace another unhealthy food in my diet for a daily cup of fruit
11. Exercise for more than 30 min. daily
12. Apologize to Ethen when I am wrong (even if I don't want too)
13. Serve Ethen when I am mad at him
14. Read 5 books this year
15. Organize my craft room (and keep it organized)
16. Gain a new talent
17. Strengthen and old talent
18. Shave my legs at least every other week (instead of once every month)
19. Make a new friend or two
20. Double my temple attendance
21. Play more with Toby
22. Help Toby to strengthen his talents
23. Get to know my sister-in-law better
24. Blog more
25. Be more positive about my appearance
26. Magnify my calling
27. Call my dad more just to bug him
28. Write a letter every month to some one that has been on my mind
29. Read scripture stories with Toby every day
30. Teach Toby the importance of prayer
31. Learn to sew
32. Learn to knit
33. Share my testimony more
34. Write in a daily journal
35. Write more in Toby's life journal
36. Show more love for my family
37. Keep up with the dishes
38. Keep up with the laundry
39. Overcome my fear of driving during the snowy winter

So that is all that I can think of for now. I know that I will be adding to the list through out the year. I know it's a lot but I hope I can knock them all down. Wish me luck. This year is going to be a great one. I am so excited to change and become better!!! Happy New Year!!! Good luck with all of your goals!

Toby Toby Toby

Read the post below for the update!

Mommys boots

Playin' the piano with daddy!!!

Cheese

Livin' Life

Life has been full of its ups and downs lately. Things are always changing and sometimes I can't keep up. Blogging has been one of those thinks that I have been bad at keeping up with. So here is a little update of the last year and all the things I didn't want to tell and all the things forgot. So.... in January I went to the doctors after a HUGE 60lbs+ weight gain. It happened all in three months and I had no idea why I was gaining or that I had, until a few months later. I hadn't changed my diet or activity. Nothing was different but the weight gain. Through some convincing from my family, I went to the doctors. After blood tests and more blood test and more doctors visits we found out that I had PCOS Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. So long story short, it has caused weight gain, infertility, achene, and a whole bunch of other really un fun stuff. The good news is that is that it can most likely be fix with weight loss, that bad news is that my body is working against my efforts to lose and making it seem at times, impossible to lose it. Every time I have lost 10lbs I have gained it back in a week. It has been a battle that at times I feel that I have lost. Then I realize, no battle is lost unless I give up. I know that I can lose it and I know that I will. I also know that it could take a REALLY long time. So...... Enough about my problems from the last year and the years to come.

I have a really cute kid that I just adore.

Sure he spits,

hits,

screams,

pushes,

pees his pants,

throws his food,

wont clean up his toys,

wakes up at 6:45,

eats all the food in the house,

colors on the couch,

touches ALL the WRONG buttons,

ALWAYS wants to watch the damn TV

caN't Stop JuMpinG,

Only breaks the things that actually mean something to me,

puts his tooth brush down the drain,

plays in the toilet water.

plays the piano WAY to lOuD,

but then when I am about to reach my BReaKing point, you know... pull out my hair, hide in the closet and cry kind of thing, he always says something like, "I'm so glad your here" and "Mom come play with me". Sometimes just hearing his sweet little, (kind of Innocent) voice just softens my heart. He is such a sweet boy.

He LovEs to do the dishes. He could wash them all day!!

He loves trains!! (unfortunately only when mom plays with him)

He loves tractors (yeah!!)

He loves the Organ

He only listens to organ music

When you ask him where dad is, he says, "playin' the organ"

He is ExtRemEly athletic

He can jump of the arm of the couch and land perfect on both feet

He can salsa dance

He LovEs his Daddy

He loves ME!

He loves life

He always says "yeah mom, forever" (I'm still not sure why)

I love when he says, " Ah, I can't get outta dare!"

I love that he loves his Papa Bear as much as I do.

I love those moments after a really hard two year old day, after I've put him to bed and sang him a song. I sit down on the couch to think about my day and just smile. That's the moment when I think how much I love this two year old boy that twists my world around. The moment that I think of his little curious brain that is working all day long to learn and discover everything he possible can. I think of all the things he did during the day that tore me apart for the moment, and I realize that he is so excited for life. He loves living it, he could eat, drink, and breath life. He is excited to go shopping, to go out in the FREEZING snow, to eat the same cereal that he has aways eaten. He is so excited to take a bath, do the dishes, sweep, do laundry, dance and sing. Every thing that has become such a chore for us all, everything that we do every day and don't even give it a thought. I love that moment that I get each night to remind my self of my love for Toby and Ethen, and to remind my self, to love life, every step, every chore, every boo boo , every trial, and every blessing. Maybe I really just like the quiet... I love my little Toblerone! He is definitely my piece of chocolate every day!

Since this is already WAY to long. I will update more later. Hopefully sooner then later!

Merry Christmas!